Ok so maybe about a year and a half ago I meet this young kid who at the time tells me he is 25. At the time I had to be 26 so I most likely didn't think twice about it. After I believe one or two visits I notice he hangs around a lot of lil boys. By lil boys I mean ur average 21 year old that likes to talk crap and lo all day. To make a long story short I kinda left him alone while dealing with my fire fighter ordeal and begab to chill again once classes were ending towards the end of the summer. During this time I have learned that he just turned 24 and I have learned that I have very very little patience.
See the thing about dating him is his mentality is still in a care free place. He has mature convo but then says some young dumb things. I don't believe he is seeking to go into the same direction as me and honestly doesn't make me feel loved. He only comforts me and not make me feel alone. But I'm not happy. I mean he is a good guy. Very respectful and ohh so nasty. Lol. But I want more. I want someone that shows affection and want to help with the blueprint of the future. It doesn't even have to be out future together it can just be helping one another w our own paths. Ughhh. IDK. All I know is I don't think I wanna raise no guy. I don't want to take the time out to mold him. I just wanna live and be happy. When will that guy come around?
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