Well well, a year later. A bit closer to 28, a month away to be exact and I am still searching for my prince charming. Wait, back it up a few words, I am patiently waiting for a man to add additional love in my life. Yup I'm greedy. Ok who am I kidding I want companionship and a family before I start getting too old (closer to 30 that is). That's a good thing, no?
I had to take a break this past year to complete work on my post graduate degree but found some time in between to do a lil soul searching. Through the process I have gained a lot of confidence in myself and my abilities. I have also noticed something that is a bit disturbing, but plays a big role in why I even have this blog in the first place. I have a fear of commitment and disspointment. Now no one likes either but I have really set up my life around those fears and in the process created a wall around myself. It began with my dad (which I won't get into bc I'm tired of hearing stories like this) I refuse to be dissapointed, but that also creates an environment that will produce a hermit. I am not at the hermit stage, but I do see the impact it has on my decisions in life. Since this is a new discovery, I can't honestly say its been conquered. I will say its been acknowledged, thoroughly examine and I make a conscious effort for it to not affect my relationships (with male or female, friend or foe).
Now I'm at a picky place in the selection process of men. I have learned that honesty is the best policy no matter what. It may not make everyone happy but it sure takes that load off ur chest. Your words need to align with ur actions at all times. And lastly Girth is great but a stiff tongue will make up for any and all short coming, heyyyyyyyyyyy:-)
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